Suddenly..

Suddenly, everything turns upside down,
I'm not just lose one,
It seems like I keep losing everything.

Everything that made my day,
Enjoyment that bring me to another different exciting world,
Now, it seems to fade away.

It hurts, really..
I think that I can,
But I can't.

Two different path,
I already made my first step,
And there's no U-turn anymore.

The path seems long,
Unpredictable future,
Haphazard life,
Getting tired dealing with people,
Dealing with everything.

I want to give up.

But I have Him,
Hope He hear and see me,
See how miserable I am now,
And help me to get my way.

I don't want to turn back,
I don't want to cry,
I don't want to tell other people what I feel now,
Because I want to be strong.

I don't want this burden to be decreased,
Just, I hope He make me stronger,
Because nothing in the world is more happier,
That what I keep dreaming about,
Dream of meeting Him with His pleasant of my accomplishment in this dunya.

Trust Him. Have faith in Him. He always be with you.

After all, you chose this path because of Allah. Allah will never disappoint you, dear..

 

"..But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not."

(Al-baqarah:216)